Ruinous

Fixed Idea:
Sexual relations compulsively indiscriminant
abandoned display of emotions--assertive, bold, enterprising--
with different partners.

(A feeling) of intense emotional attachment
Unwanted feeling--insistent, repetitious--
agitation caused by imminent danger.

Addict promiscuous obsessed (identification)
initiating hostilities due to intense desire and
attraction, dangerous to oneself,
Ruinous.

Green Tea

I used to snack on

mint chocolate chip ice cream.

Any brand, any texture, from any store.

It was all the same: fairly dull, sometimes sweet,

and always made me feel a little sick later.

Then I found green tea.

It took a while before I was given permission

to drink;

But once I did I was hooked

Like a soda-addict, or a chipaholic;

I no longer wanted mint chocolate chip

I have green tea.

A B C . . .

A B C . . .

A beautiful catastrophic
delirious escape
from gorgeous hills
into jinxed kindness
love me never
or poison quarantine
risks stiff, taut,
universal vibrations
winged xanthic yeast
zealously.

Dig Into Love (an old poem)

Dig Into Love

I want to dig into my love for him,
the way I dig my pen into paper--
without tearing it, but leaving
my mark.
All I do is find the music,
uncover the things he likes,
and retain them in the jumbled box I call
my mind:
dusting through his words
I cling to his touch,
all the while I need to
scrape the surface--
and find room for him.